Some things are meant to change.

Well, the kids are registered for fall classes at Carthage Central High/Middle School. This was not a decision that I took lightly by any means. I was actually quite shocked when Cheyenne mentioned that she had been thinking about attending public school. All these thoughts started going through my head. Yes, all the self-doubt notions. I am very pleased that Cheyenne opened up and expressed her feelings to her dad and me. I know it wasn’t easy for her to tell her mommy that she wanted a new teacher. LOL

From the very beginning, I have told the kids that when they were ready to go to pubic school they could. As long as the school was acceptable. Of course, with Cheyenne toying with the idea of attending high school, I opened the discussion with the boys. It was a very funny conversation. Trey’s first response when I told him Cheyenne was thinking about going to public school he called her a “Traitor”. LOL Then his next question was would he have to be in the same class as his brother. I told him I wasn’t sure but probably not. His response was “YESSSS”! Of course he wanted to know if he would get his own locker.

When I talked to Tyrin about the whole idea his first response was, “Don’t you want me to stay home with you, Mommy”? I told him I wanted him not to worry about me but to tell me what he wanted. His next question was, “Will I have to be in the same class as Trey”? I said, “No”. He said, “YESSSS”! Of course the next thing he asked was if he was getting his own locker. Cheyenne and I about fell on the floor because those two boys are so much alike.

I told the kids that we should pray about the decision and after spring break I would call the school and see about getting a tour and an appointment to meet with the guidance counselor. On Friday, of last week the boys and I sat down with the middle school counselor and learned about the different classes that the middle school offers. They also had the opportunity to walk around the school for a tour. They were pretty excited. Cheyenne had to wait until this past Monday to meet with the high school guidance counselor. She was so excited. I could see that she was not going to decided to stay home another year. They counselor sat her down and did a four year plan with her. She basically picked her classes for the fall and the only thing holding her back was me putting the registration paperwork in. The thing the school has that I cannot provide is theater and sports.

If the laws up here weren’t so strict; and if the kids could participate in the school sports nothing would have changed. However, I know that they want to make new friends and I believe that God will watch over them and allow them to be a light. As weird as it may sound, there are not many kids where we are. Yes, we live on a military post and yet we cannot find the kids. Mind you there are little kids but not many their age. We just have to give it some more time.

Like I said before, this was not an easy decision. However, with God’s help I will make it though this transition. I love being with my kids and enjoy homeschooling them and I never really thought the day would come when they would want to go back to school. Things change. LOL I think I may be experience some abandonment issues. LOL Especially since Marlin will be deploying and the kids will be heading off to school. What will I do? I will be alone for the first time in 13 years. OH MY!!! That thought scares the day lights out of me. I know I will eventually get use to it. LOL For starters the idea is to go back to school myself and finish my degree. Only have 12 classes left for my BS degree.

Well, I better head off to bed. It is getting late and tomorrow is the military ball. I also have to register my baby for football…….why did he have to choose football. They run into each other. LOL Tyrin better run fast and never let anyone touch him. LOL

Below are the lyrics to a song Cheyenne shared with me. She was trying to explain to me why she wanted to go to public school and she told me to listen to this song. It broke my heart. I love you Cheyenne!

"Let Go" Check out the video:

Changing,Everywhere I am
I been stuck in a rut,
I been caught upYeah, it happens fast
Moving,
To where I wanna begin
I wanna find new life and see new eyes
And breathe again
(I'm gonna) stop now, take a breathIt's all so crazy


[Chorus:]

But I'm ready to let go
Looking forward to don't know
Forget about yesterday, get away
And live in the right now
Yeah, I'm ready to let go
And I'm ready follow
Anywhere the road bends
Where it ends I don't know
So let go


Oh, we live in the future
We got our regrets
Cause we don't live in
The present tense
(It's) hectic in my mind
(Gonna) leave it behind


[Chorus]

Don't wanna over think it
Don't worry so much
Gonna live this life
And not lose touch
I'm gonna let go


[Chorus]

Date Night

This past Thursday, Marlin and I had a so called date night. It was a little work related but in the end we were out together with no kids. Therefore, must have been a date. LOL

Marlin’s company was hosting an 80’s and below Spring Dance. I was initially going to do the whole poodle skirt thing but with the Military Ball a week after I wanted to keep the cost to a minimum. I’ve never attended a function like this and was afraid I would be the only one dressed up. So, I opted for the 80’s theme. Didn’t want to venture to far out of my comfort zone. Plus, I thought this shouldn’t be a problem since I lived through the 80’s. All I had to do was think about all the things I wore back in jr./high school. You know the MC Hammer pants, bunchy socks, florescent belts, jellies, bracelets, and don’t forget the faded/torn jeans. If only I would have held on to all my old clothes (provided I didn’t have children and weigh more) I could have worn them. The amazing thing is all these things are back in fashion now and you can buy it anywhere. So I decided that the History lesson for the day would be shopping for 80’s clothes. The boys had fun for a little while but after about an hour and 4 stores they were done. Cheyenne on the other hand was trying to pick out things that she knew she could wear as well. She would say, “Mom, it’s ok if you don’t want it anymore. I will gladly take it off your hands when you are done with it”. Wasn’t that nice of her?

It would only be fitting that I found just the right clothes at the same place I use to shop 20 odd years ago…The DEB Shop. So with much help from my children, who encouraged this way too much, here we are some pics from our Oldies Date Night. Cheyenne was our photographer for the evening.

The dance itself was a lot of fun. I even managed to Marlin to dance with me. Yes, he got up and did the twist. Mind you a man with a bad back should't really do this dance as we discovered. We both laughed so hard. We also slowed dance together for the first time in about 13 years. Way to long.

This Friday is the ball so I cannot wait to dance some more.

By the way the shirt Marlin is wearing his daughter picked out for him. It says,"Kicking it Old School". LOL She can get her dad to wear anything. LOL

Finally Connected Again

Well, we are finally finished moving around. I don't think I will get all the boxes unpacked as fast as I did the first time though. Starting to think maybe it could be part of my new decor. LOL

Life up here in New York is good. It has been an adjustment for me living this close to army life once again but it is much better than living alone. We really haven’t met anyone yet except for people at church and our neighbors. I actually attended a Women’s Conference last week and was determined to meet some moms with older children but that didn’t happen at all. It seems everyone is just having babies and I am so done with that. LOL For the most part the kids are adjusting well. I know it hasn't been easy for them and they are so eager to make new friends.
We have come to realize that there may be some big changes taking place in the next couple of months. I have always told the kids that when they are ready or want to go to public school that they could. Well, Cheyenne has voiced that concern to us and in the process have her brothers thinking as well. If we were living in Maryland that wouldn’t even be an option but up here in NY there isn’t a lot of support for homeschoolers. There are no local co-ops that I can find and the Homeschooling laws here are pretty strict. Before any one else says it ….I don’t want to start one. LOL Been there done that!

I know I could teach them and manage for the next couple years but I also have to listen to what my children are asking. The biggest thing is they want to play sports and meet new people. The youth services don’t offer sports for the teens because they don’t want to compete with the schools. They cannot participate in sports if they are not in the school. It really is a tough situation. I absolutely love to home school (this is our sixth year) and love being with my kids but I have also come to realize that I must listen to what they want as well. So right now we are going to pray about it and after we get back in town we are going to set an appointment up with the school and see about going in and checking out our options. I want us to have all the information before we make a decision. So please pray for God’s guidance on this matter.

Well, like I said we are heading to Pennsylvania tomorrow to see family. This is Marlin’s block leave and we will be going home for him to see family before he heads to Iraq. I am still in denial about the whole thing. I just don’t want to think about. However, our time together is very limited.

Have a Blessed Easter!